A video of Jenn at the driving range

Isn’t she cute when she is proud of herself???



I love the weekends!

Saturday (well I worked of course…) we went to the fireworks that one of the outlet malls by my work puts on. This is first 4th of July tradition that Jenn and I started ourselves. We always spend a night with Elissa and family at their house, and with Lyz and family at Chris’s family’s farm… the night at Rockvale Square is ours. Lyz, Chris, Avery, Joni and Dennis (Lyz’s mom and boyfriend) were able to join us this year (Elissa and family had other plans) and we had fun. Part of our tradition is getting dinner and having a picnic.

I will admit getting a little teary, as I remember having the conversation with Jenn that we would be missing fireworks this year. I mean who wants to drag a poor two week old out to the loud fireworks??

Avery was so sweet when the fireworks started!! We weren’t expecting them and she just shook her whole little body, but within two or three blasts she was giggling and enjoying the view!

Joni and Dennis:


Fireworks:(I call this one Fertilization, it looks like a bunch of swimmers heading towards an egg…a sign maybe???)

Lyz, Avery and I watching the fireworks:

(I do have one comment. You should always turn off your car alarm before fireworks. Lyz and I were very VERY angry at this one car…it was driving us bonkers and ruining the ambiance.)

Sunday of course was IUI day. I admit to being quite afraid to go. I’m scared to death to be pregnant again. I will not enjoy it. I don’t mean that, of course I will enjoy it, but I will spend the entire time absolutely scared out of my mind. So I was a bit of a bear to get out of the house–Sorry Jenn! But, totally worth it, especially if we are pregnant. We changed type of specimens from ICI to IUI and are totally pleased with the results. With an ICI specimen we were averaging around 5 million swimmers….today 13 MILLION!!! It’s actually quite gross to me, but awesome that it will help up our chances. Not that I need help getting pregnant, obviously that works, I just need help keeping it.

We went to breakfast afterwards, and by the time we left breakfast I started ovulating. I could barely stand up straight. This makes me very happy as this way I know we have timed it right. But man does it hurt!! I could barely stand up straight!! A quick nap and all was well!

Today (I’m extending the weekend here) Jenn went with Chris and Avery to the driving range in the morning so that Chris could give Jenn some pointers. You see Jenn did well enough last week, that she has been invited back. She is thrilled!!! So excited to be invited back with “the guys” to go golfing. I’m so very proud of her. It really makes me happy that she enjoys golfing.

It’s weird, but now that she is unemployed and her stress level has been taken down several notches, I’ve got my old Jenn back. The Jenn before we lost Blue and depression took over. Yes, she got help, but I can see how much of a role her horrible job played into her depression. I know people think its really odd when I say it, but her being unemployed is really the best thing that could have happened.

Anywho, back to golf. Chris semi-made fun of her wearing tennis shoes, and using a batting glove while they were golfing last week. So, I gave her permission to go out and buy some new golfing gear. Yes, I’m weird, but her golfing just makes me so happy. It’ll be fun next year (hopefully) for mothers day to get her a few new clubs, or SpongeBob balls. It’s perfect, like the little dreams I had in my head of my future spouse!!

I’ll pause here to explain why I’m writing all over the place. Today at work, by sitting down of all things, I totally jarred my back. I can barely move, so I’ve taken some drugs and when I do that I become hyper and can’t think straight, so I start wandering, and apparently I’m over wandering right now. Sorry!!!

K, back to Jenn. So we went out after I got home from work to the Nike outlet (god bless the outlets) and for less than $75.00 we got her a new pair of golf shoes, a new golf shirt, a visor, and a golf glove (do you know how hard it is to find golfing stuff for someone who is left handed???) She is so very proud of herself. I can’t even begin to explain how excited she is to go golfing!

After that we went to dinner at Isaac’s which is one of my favorite places it eat. I mean the place is decorated in flamingos!!! I ate three bowls of their pickled veggies. I heart them. Here I am 1dpo and Jenn has decided that by eating three bowls of pickles I just have to be pregnant!

After dinner we went to the driving range again, Jenn wanted me to hit a few (I think so she could laugh at me.) With my back being the way it was I only hit two. She did really really well!! I was proud of her. She just can’t stop talking about the golfing. I love to see her so excited about something.

Pictures, of course.

Me: (please note that the ball is still on the tee. I missed it.

Jenn: (I’ll post a video too, cause I’m a dork like that, and oh so proud of her)

So, here I sit at 1dpo….waiting for 13 more. There’s not a pregnancy test in the house. Don’t know how long that will last.

I didn’t (and won’t) ovulate on my own!!!

I didn’t sleep last night, scared to death that we were going to miss our chance this month.

Then, in typical Heidi fashion, we were late for our appointment. Sigh. Thankfully they love us there and were perfectly okay with us being late.

The ultrasound showed two perfect follicles on my right ovary, and lots of smaller follicles on both sides.

So they did bloodwork and we waited around for ever and ever and ever for the results. Moral of the story is that my LH (Lutenizing(sp?) Hormone–that which tells you to ovulate) was only 6.2, they would like to see it higher than 16. Jenn will be giving me the trigger shot tonight at 8pm, and then we will head back to the re’s office for the IUI Sunday morning at 8am.

Phfew, we didn’t miss it, and apparently I need to learn not to freak that we will miss it cause my body isn’t going to ovulate on its own!! (note to self, keep this post handy for next month when I start the freaking out process all over again. Jenn says we won’t have to do this freaking out all over again cause we’ll be pregnant, I sure hope she is right.)

Just Let the Clubs Do the Work.

Jenn got invited to go golfing with Chris today. Can I just tell you how excited and honored she felt?? It’s all I heard about for days. Last night we had to make an emergency trip to Target (like I needed a reason to go to Target) to get her a new golf bag. I demanded the new golf bag. The old one–awful. I was not about to let her leave the house with that horrible thing and embarrass me!!

They had fun, and Chris did really, really good. Jenn did good for someone who hasn’t been golfing in a year (and who’s wife didn’t get in the shower early enough to talk her to the driving range yesterday afternoon).

As far as Just Let the Clubs Do the Work, Jenn says that is all Chris said all day, well, other than singing this song to her.

And, of course I sent the camera along to the golf course!!

Jenn modeling her new bag:

Jenn taking a swing:


Because I can’t live my life without something TTC related to worry about.

Dude. My ovaries hurt. This concerns me for one of two reasons.


A. I have too many follicles. In which case they might cancel the cycle as they do not want to be responsible for causing me to birth a litter of children.

B. I’m going to ovulate super early this cycle. Normally I ovulate on day 17 or 18. I’m feeling the pains now that I normally feel on day 16 or 17. My follicle scan is not until tomorrow morning. What if all the little eggies spring forth tonight?

Yes, I considered calling the RE’s office today and asking their opinion on the matter. But all they will do is have me come in for bloodwork today, then do IUI tomorrow. So whats the difference in just going in tomorrow for the ultrasound???

Sigh. I wish Michelle wasn’t out of town. I trust her better with such matters than Dr. F.

What’s a girl to do other than sit around peeing on sticks all day (every.time.she.goes.to.the.bathroom.)??? (and in case your curious, they all look the same, almost positive, but not quite, have I ever mentioned that my body failed poas 101?)