I’m sitting at the hotel crying right now. I went back through pictures to find the pictures of Blue’s birthday cakes over the years. I thought that would be cute to include in tomorrow’s blog post. I’m going to make his cake this year, as I’m trying to keep the cake healthy (ANGEL food cake is better for you than other types of cake).
I found the cake from 2009
I found the cake from 2010
Then I found the cupcakes from 2011
What about the above makes me angry??? Blue’s cakes were Jenn’s thing. She wanted that to be her thing. She would contact the place that made our wedding cake and order two cakes for January 11. One for Blue and one to celebrate our anniversary. I had a flashback to a year ago today when she came home from work and told me she just didn’t want to do a cake this year, for either occasion.
I walked into the kitchen and found a box of mix and blue dye and made those very blue cupcakes. My son will never have a birthday without a cake. She may not be the person who finds such things important, but I am.
I’m pissed because she walked out on us that day. She was so far into her other life that having a cake for her son on his birthday was not important to her.
Pardon me, but fuck her. It has taken me almost a year to find anger, and I just did. I cannot believe that she did that a year ago. Fine, don’t be in love with me, whatever. But don’t you dare ignore our son in that way.
I had been planning on signing Blue’s fourth birthday letter from his mommies…it seemed like the nice thing to do.
I changed my mind.