I am sitting in CLAD’s kitchen right now.
Sunday, Jenn decided to break the news to me that she has fallen out of love with me, and has feelings for another woman.
She could have done things so different. So much better. She could have left me. She could have waited a few months to start dating. Then we would all be friends. Instead, when offered this she choose other woman. I said “Please, choose Joni, Lyz, Chris, Avery, Delaney and I over other woman.” She sad she had to think about it. I thought we were important enough that there wouldn’t even be a question. Apparently I was wrong.
I’m so lost right now. I know it hasn’t quite hit me yet. It did a little at 4am when I realized that Jenn and other woman were in my house together, probably in my bed together. I am so confused.
I told Lyz this morning, after sleeping for the first time since I woke up Saturday morning (Jenn worked overnight on Saturday night, so I didn’t sleep since she wasn’t in bed with me) that I cannot tell the difference between reality and the nightmares.
Then I realized it is because they are one and the same.