The other morning I was driving to work screeching singing along to one of my favorite songs. It got me to thinking about what I consider my top 5 favorite songs. When I figured them out I noticed a trend.
My top five favorite songs are all linked to “a great love of my life”.
In chronologiacal order (not the order of how much I love (or loved in one case):
1-Somebody by Depeche Mode-Sam.
I can tell you that I was 14 years old. He used to always complain about that. Even when I was older and he was on his mission, he wrote me a letter about one of the young ladies that he converted was 14. “Why do they always have to be 14?” he asked. And you may say, but you were only 14? How could this be a true great love? He was. His name is Sam and I loved him for 4 years. He was my first kiss, alone at church early one morning standing in the cultural hall. He was my first love. While he was on his mission and I was in Idaho we would write to each other three or four times a week. By the end of that year I was hardly writing to him at all. I had met Jenn.
When he came home from his mission, in fact the night before he left for Idaho, I went over to his house to help him pack. We laid on his bed together snuggling, and then he bent down and kissed me. I will admit it was one of the most powerful kisses I have ever had. Why? Because I felt nothing. My heart had been torn in two directions for so long and I didn’t know which way to go, but that kiss answered it. I knew where and who my heart belonged to. I cried when I left his house that night. I knew that my heart made a decision that would make my life difficult in the years to come. I knew that this decision was going to hurt other people that I love. I also knew that I had never felt so happy or free.
2-Lullabye by Billy Joel-Blue. (yes, Blue came after the later songs, but I loved the song and my future children the first time I heard it.)
I was sitting in my Uncle Kevin and Aunt Bridget’s apartment playing on his computer. It was 1993, computers were still pretty foreign to me. He put this cd in to show me something about memory and how amazing cd’s are. When this song came on I became very quiet. This is the song I will someday sing to my children. This is the song that I will rock them to sleep with. This is the song that they will sing to their children to rock them to sleep, because their mother sang it to them.
To look back on who I loved with this song I think I also have to admit she was my first girl crush. To protect her identity I shall call her Frances. When I first met her, I can honestly say that I hated her. She and Sam got along well too. The summer between my junior and senior years of high school something clicked and we became inseparable. I remember my other best friend at the time calling when she got home from vacation and asking me if anything big had happened while she was gone. Yep, the speed dial button that used to say Sam now says Frances. She was shocked.
Frances is now that friend that no matter how long it has been since we have talked, we can pick up the phone and call and text and it is just the same as it has always been.
Jenn is a huge Shania Twain fan. We bought this cd the day it came out. I can remember listening to it in our very first apartment. When this song came on we both looked at each other. This is our song. We danced in the living room to it several times. It became the theme of our wedding. It was engraved in Jenn’s wedding ring. On long road trips the cd always gets played and we sing it duet style, I sing for Shania, Jenn sings for Bryan, and we hold hands. All we need is just the two of us!
This song I can date. June 19, 2008. A cd came in the care package Lyz left on our doorstep on Blue’s due date. When I saw the cd I thought how sweet. Later in the day as we drove to meet Lyz for dinner, I put the cd in. Have you ever really listened to the words? Yes, you probably know all the words, but have you ever really listened to their meaning? It is am amazing song. It is Lyz’s and mine’s song. It empowers me. If I am having a hard day, I throw it in my cd player and belt it out while driving home. It makes me cry, but in a good way. I know that Lyz is singing those words to me, standing by me.